Well, let me get this out as best as I can. Might be rambling and a bit difficult to get everything out, and will probably sound stupid and "emo" when it's all done.
I had a job training thing begin last week, and was told to come back Monday at 6 to finish up and start work. I got there just before 6 and...
nothing
Nobody there. Door open, but nobody around.
I waited until about 6 after, and texted the guy I was supposed to meet (the company OWNER) who just said that he forgot. No actual apology and no indication to go home or stay. So I stayed until 7 and left, feeling totally useless and abandoned.
Did I forget to mention that EVERYONE was against me even taking this job. Yep, a fight (very minor, but still) with wife-a-chu, friends calling me stupid, everything. And now I felt really used and stupid.
So, I sleep on it and still am feeling like shit in the morning. I was up around 9 but didn't do ANYTHING until about 1. Got into a very interesting twitter conversation about possible future endevours with a local self-made businessman (good guy, I'd mention him but I'm keeping ALL names out of this) and someone else helping me with Linkedin when I see that someone else I know is going to be in close proximity to someone I need to ask a question to...
(Now-digression: this person I'm asking about has me blocked on twitter. I don't know why and that's what I want asked. I'll put what I think about blocking a bit later.)
So I ask this other person to ask the question and he blows me off, telling me to "get used to it". This, in my current mental state, I take as a DOUCHBAG RESPONSE. So I eventually tweet the following:
--- For the record-I think of an "unfollow" as a minor slight, but I could be overwhelming so OK. A "block" I see as a "FUCK YOU!" insult. ---
Which is exactly how I see it. I then get a snarky comment from him, followed by an unfollow (he was offended by the "FUCK YOU" of it, and appears to be the only one who was offended enought to unfollow.
Well, that was about the low point for me. People started talking to me online after that and tried to cheer me up. I'm a little better, but still stressed out, needing money, feeling unloved (and loved at the same time-thank-you know who you are), etc.
So, do I just "Snap out of it" or do I need "help" or better yet can you help me?
Have to go, there's a cat attacking me.
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